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i hope your day is going well. i'm getting ready to head over to my discussion section. my paper is nowhere near being done. oh well, it will get done and be turned in by 1pm monday. computer is once again disassembled. i'm gonna try to get out of here by 7:30 or so, should get there around 8:30. can't wait to see you! :)

posted by Ron @ 5:46 PM

have a wonderful day, love. i will see you soon!

posted by Ron @ 4:18 AM

so, i've been seriously unproductive today. other than going to my 2 afternoon classes and burning a few shns, i have done absolutely nothing of any significance. :/ that kinda sux a lot. and now i have this really crappy feeling. and i hate feeling this way cause i brought it on myself. i have successfully made you not happy with me again, and that sux, cause that's the absolute last thing that i want to do. and i sit here, looking at your picture, wondering how i got so lucky, and realizing that i'm so very capable of screwing this up completely and now my eyes are watery and that is not a good thing cause i definitely can't study and cry at the same time. erg. :( i don't want to be your dad. i don't want to be anything like your dad. the only affiliation i want is to one day be his son-in-law. maybe we'll connect on some other level, like sports or something, i don't know. but i don't want to be him. i want to be the boy you fell in love with; the boy who tried to make you happy when you were sad; the boy makes your bed and puts away your laundry and makes you food not because he has to or because you tell him to, but because he wants to and offers to do so; the boy who didn't realize how huge a part of his life you were going to be until he actually had a chance to hang out with you. i want to be the boy who is old and has grey hair and whose joints squeak when he bends; the boy who comes to see you as often as he possibly can simply to appease his desire to be with you and your desire to be with him; the boy who would go to the ends of the earth for you just to make you happy.

i want to be your boy.
i want to be your pride and joy.
i want to be ron-o.

posted by Ron @ 12:14 AM

so i'm sitting here, kinda working on my paper...... kinda not. blah. you are on the phone with mike now. woohoo! yay for being there!! talk for long periods of time. i will talk to you later. i think i'm going to cook something now. :)

posted by Ron @ 6:38 PM

J oyful
U nderstanding
S trong
T ough
I ndependent
N uturing
E ntertaining

E rudite
L ickerish
I nquisitive
Z esty
A mbrosial
B eautiful
E nticing
T asty
H ardworking

A dmirable
D edicated
E bullient
L uminescent
S pontaneous
P olitic
E surient
R emarkable
G iving
E motional
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posted by Ron @ 5:51 PM

sorry about that, babe. though i was in class from 1-3:15 ;) so it would have been hard for me to post. i hope that your day is going well. just got off the phone with my mom. now i'm on the phone with duncan. *sigh* i want sleep. i want you more though. wish i was there to appease your boredom. more will be added shortly. have a good meeting.

posted by Ron @ 4:39 PM

so, i'm sitting here. i went to my class and no one was there. hmmmmmm. so i'm here. kinda bored, though there's a million things i need to be doing. ahh well, it'll get done. i hope your day is going well. woohoo!!! i get to see you soon! yay!! hmmmmm, i think i'll eat something, then go get these tix for the game before my class @ 2. talk to you soon. love you.

posted by Ron @ 12:22 PM

it's funny that you say you can't ever come up with the right thing to say, cause i feel the same so often. i always want to say more than 'i love you', more than 'you mean the world to me', more than 'you're perfect', but it's hard, because the words that i want to use just don't exist. the words that are at my disposal, while they serve the same purpose for the most part, just don't seem to convey all the feelings i have for you and about you. i agree that school is hard right now...... trying to juggle everything i am is a daunting task. but the fact remains, school would not be the same without you being around. while i struggle to get everything done on time because i always have so much, i always make sure that i have time for you. if you need me, i will be there for you. it's as simple as that. i will always make time for you, no matter what is going on here. and i try as hard as i do in everything i do because i know that's what you not only want from me, but it's what you expect of me. and you should expect that from me, because if i'm not willing to give everything i have to all that i do, then what's the point of trying? i'm still terrified about this weekend. i'm terrified of meeting your dad for so many reasons, and it's so hard to explain cause all the reasons just mash together. but i will deal. and i will be with you. and i will be ok. and after that, things will be easier. it's always that first time that's the hardest. i've never felt as strongly about anyone as i do about you. i've never been so convinced that things will work out and that we will be together for a very long time as i am with you. and that's why what you did after that email scares me so much. because i care about you more than life itself, and i would do anything you could ever think of if it would keep you safe and happy and ok with life. and it scares me that in one instance, i was unable to keep you out of harm's way. it scares me the way it feels. it scares me that you were in such a place that it came to that. it scares me that the life you've lived has caused you to even contemplate something like that. i know this is going to make you cry, and i'm sorry about that. but i love you. i love you more than life itself. you are the most important person in my life, and nothing is going to keep me from being with you. bring on your toughest competition, it doesn't matter. there is absolutely nothing in this world that will keep me from making you happy for the rest of my life.

posted by Ron @ 12:51 AM

i miss you

posted by Ron @ 10:20 PM

you made it all worthwhile. :) so thank you for such an incredible weekend.

posted by Ron @ 4:06 PM